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Hey! I know im not showing around here 99% of the time but im still alive. Because compared to my last visit on DeaviantArt all kind of things happened and all stuff and blah blah blah.

But why dont i show up here. Well, its so. From the fact no drawings came has more reasons. One of them is that my PC is slowly beathing out his last energy and it already takes him an half hour to start. I already saved up enough money (through sports bets too - you know me) for an new one but actually i cant order the new one because the site where i let build up mine is because of the lockdown not available, means i cannot order an new one till the lockdown is over. And it wont be an laptop. And then cames the fact that im by keyboards very strict. It has to be not an usual like every random has. Im the type for that what i think its the best for me. And for this i better take a look at them personally and then i decide but every electronic store is closed because of ... lockdown.

Well! Yeah, the lockdown. This alleveolves more and more. And for me who always said people just overreacting (just look in the stores), even my opinion changed totally. At first i always said "Blah Blah! You all will see. Its not so harsh and all the stupid folks in Germany just start to hording toilet paper and noodles." And then the first little slap came when i became sick! It was around the time where Italy was already on a total lockdown and in Germany only a few people were infected. It was just an flu. But i was about to think for a while, what when i have this now! I was called sick for a week til i was ready to work again and believe me, i work, no matter how hard the flu fights. I fight harder. But at this moment i was overrun. Long story short! There was the first time i ask myself if this corona virus is really harsher than it is (Spoiler: Oh yes!). A few weeks later or better we head to the end of March. On an weekend me and some friends met in the Discord voicechat because i normall i met my rl friends in real but because of the lockdown i cant. So we played FIFA like we always do on weekend since my beloved soccer is canceled. And there i played in carrer mode against a club called "Korona Kielce". And there i got in the press conference an question who was the total overkill. "Korona brought in the last weeks very good results. Are you worried now?" and as i saw that. This was the overkill. I laughed for about twenty minutes only because it sounded so funny. But only one day later karma showed that its an ice cold bitch. My brother came in my room and he said that the hospital called that my grandfather lays in hospital because of corona. And my grandmother was meanwhile under quarantaine. And my laugh from the last day became an sad look where i was about to cry. My grandfather, a men full of peace and love for the humanity lays in hospital form an disease i made so much fun of it one day earlier. He had an special risk because he was already 85 years old and he had asthma, because he has an very hard smoker in his earlier days. And the same counted for my grandmother who hand since one year on the ventiltor. I already knew one day the day comes where they pass away but because of this... especially since i made so much fun of it ... and i called with them on the weekend before the lockdown that i came to visit them on the next weekend. These thougths ran around with me for all the time. My dad feels miserable and he dont understand the world anymore. Hes safe and health and fine but the loss takes him much more than me. And when i already sound like a crybaby (I know the most here making fun of me because of the events two years ago. I can forgive but i dont forget!) how do feel, jesus christ! And after my grandfather my grandfather lost the fight against the virus too. At least they slept in peaceful because this was the lwast thing the docs can do. Since then one week passed and even then it wasnt over for me yet. A few days later i got another slap and this was kinda for me a bit to much. Dont worry. Nobody else of my family died or was tested positive. They are all safe. It has to do with the virus but i wont say anything else to it because i dont want to spray more and more negativity i already do. But talking about negativity i had an call with my psychiatrist and he told me the things i needed in this moment. And since then i feel better. And now i can hope that this all will be over soon. So please! Stay home! When you want to meet your friend, then make a video chat. Whatsapp, Discord, Messenger, Skype or what i use in the university by projects Google Groups. But stay home! So you protect your people and yourself best. Was your hands and dont touch everything you see. Even i use an small scarf when i go to the store. I may look with it like an bad version of a street gangster but its for the security. Please! I give generally give a fuck on the government but actual we need to listen at them. Sometimes we need to hold together with distancing. My daily walk with my dog fall into water because i dont want to risk anything. But for this i have an graden. Throwing a stick or throwing a ball is perfect for this time. I do my sport in the garden too actually.

But after all i got good news too. I got two job offers when im done with my studium to bachelor of art. One is an german company but the place i work is an branch office in Amsterdam in Netherlands and the other is in Regensburg. And i decided my to take the one in Regensburg. So im closer to my family and i can visit with my cousin more often because he always watches the games of Regensburg. And i can learn the bavarian accent. Its an really funny accent when i hear bavarians talking. Sheesh. I can speak a few things in bevarian but it sounds so bad by me. And in general im more active on Instagram where i sometimes post personal stuff from me or what im doing. And maybe in the future i swithc over to Instagram. I dont know yet!

I got the idea to this drawing during an RP with Martin-SP . And i wanted to show you guys that im still alive. And drawing will maybe come more again when i have my new PC after the lockdown. You have no idea how much i want to play Minecraft without my PC is dying from playing the game.