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we were given capacity to function under darkened skies,
          while all humanity hums it’s twisted rhythms of retrogression
       and i was

              lost in the middle?
          (or was i the beginning)

      the ground is shaking beneath severed limbs
  as hard as we try -
          we can’t get away from this one.

     (and to think, it was our own trembling hands that held the knife)

diverging lines from well-drawn charts
      i just
           .couldn’t take this anymore.

      every existing soul chokes back breaths and examines out of tainted eyes
           forcing venom through my arteries and acid through my lungs

    self-induced coma’s on bedroom floors because...
               beauty is unattainable
           and acceptance is only achieved through desecration

  arms wrapped too tightly
                          longings never die

         i am a misrepresentation
       each hand print a violation

there was once compassion through scribbled lines on a torn page
             at one time love was not a word spit out for what it might get in return -
         it was blood pumping through ventricles in my chest

             but today the air temperature has dropped into the negatives,
                       somehow following my outlook on life

      i will for the last time play the memories through my mind
(decorated letters hidden from view,
              CD’s filled with songs that imitate heart-beats)

         this has been my life

pain like a revolving door that has no exit
   the invitation was declined.


this generation is intent on living out it’s suicide,

  and as for me...

the choice was forfeited long ago.