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Holy SHIT, have I been through hell today. . . I honestly can't get into all the bullshit that was suddenly dropped on me, but I won't allow it to completely crush me. Not this time. I have too much to be happy for, and too much to be proud of. I FINALLY got a whole load of things taken care of in my personal life and I am so ecstatic that so many looming things have been tackled and completed. Not only that, but I've knocked out almost all owed art save for one more prize from my ancient raffle and a handful of other pieces I basically just chose to take on awhile ago, so . . . I feel . . . super FREE now. Like, that's an ENORMOUS weight lifted off my shoulders. If you go through my gallery you'll see that everything I've been uploading lately has just been a mix of owed art and limited time MYO events mixed with some group art. It feels so good to get to chose to do something else and not have a time limit for it, holy shit-

I mean, naturally I did all that bullshit to myself, and then life became fucking unbearable IRL so a lot of it started piling up, but I have worked hard to dig myself out of my art grave and I am BACK, bitch!! I got to dust off my gore skills and make a piece that really felt good to make. I've had the idea for this one rattling around in my head for months now, but never felt my schedule was clear enough to justify me making it.

Originally, this was just going to be a funny, cartoony gore piece, but I did the me thing and made it more detailed with my weird semi-real-semi-cartoon style and a bunch of blending and shading and shit. I am actually REALLY proud of how it all turned out, too, considering it took a little longer than anticpated. It also gained a lot of meaning for me as I worked because, like, it kind of comforted and empowered me as I drew it. I've been taking a lot of life's punches for a good minute now, and I'm still here and still working and I've been KILLING it lately and so I really feel like I deserve to feel good about myself right now.

Also, I think this is a good starting point for me to begin doing what I've been wanting to do for awhile now--upload more gorey/creepy pieces! I have had people wanting to see more spooky/edgy stuff from me lately, and for the longest time I had so many people not wanting to see that from me but now my spooky audience is GROWING and I'm gonna fuckin' SERVE them that shit on a silver platter, my dude. I've had entire art collection ideas on the back burner for awhile now, unwritten stories, undrawn characters, unfinished video storyboards. Seeing how well the stuff I've been doing has been received in different areas of my online presence has been really helping me to feel good about my work and I really want to continue to cultivate that and improve. This particular piece is the first of hopefully many pieces I'm dubbing "casual gore," so look forward to that in the future!

So thank you to everyone who's been patient, and has been showing me some deeply needed support. I love you guys. <3

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