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I actually finished this weeks ago and debated this entire time if I wanted to share it.

I do a small number of disability-related art pieces here and there. And it's healthy to get those feelings on paper and express them as much as I can manage. But sometimes when things are REALLY bad... I draw something full of all the pain and violence I feel in my own body and it disturbs even me to see it drawn on paper.

I drew this on a day right before we got a cold front that dropped us about 50 full degrees overnight. Cold fronts are the bane of my existence... that and incoming rain or ice. TONS of pain. I was... not in a good headspace when I drew this. I drew it out of frustration and anger, I drew it to show what my hips felt like. I didn't want to pull any punches, I didn't want to soften the blow. I was as brutal in the art as the pain itself was on me.

And once I finished it (later, when the pain allowed me to sit up at a computer and color things) I kept it to myself for weeks, wondering if it would upset people or make them uncomfortable. And I realized... yeah, it would. But I was okay with that, because it IS an upsetting thing and I know that and it's okay that others know it too.