HOME | DD

surrender — Description
I lived a lot of different lives, been different people many times. I lived my life in bitterness and filled my heart with emptiness.

It was a cold afternoon, just as all of them had been in the days. Days that seemed like decades. Hours that devastated my mind. Seconds that killed the fire. But the time had come. I met him at the place we both knew so well, and as I was approaching,
a smile hushed over his lips.
“You got it?”, he asked and his brittle voice cut even deeper in my heart than many miseries that I had brought to myself. “I think so.”, I murmured undecidedly and uncertain. I felt uneasy. I always did. Not only uneasy, but also empty. Empty and full at the same time, as if I could explode and implode within a second. But the time had come. No longer could I bear all of this. No longer did I want to hold the key. I lifted my arm with the last feeling of strength I felt rushing through my veins.
“Here it is. Surrender has come to poison my senses. This little life I’m living is no longer mine. And as my body crawls down the path, run away and never come back. Run to the world I wish I’ll never know … the world I wish I never knew. The places I never wanted to see. The people I never wanted to be. Run away with this surrender and turn black.”
“I will.”, he said. “I know I will.”

(day ninety-seven)

preach it; our art is free - join THE ART WARRIORS
photography & edit (c) me
model: me
equipment used: canon eos 1000D & canon 50mm f/1.4;
facebook fanpage

do not use my photos without my written permission!