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Added Report, Lieutenant's Log 23.6z
"War, War Changes...In many ways more then once....Either in it's weaponry or the people who fight with them, War can change but how Wars are started can never quite change, From what i gathered in missions that i've been apart of so far it's invading other territories and fighting to claim it for themselves, The Xenomorphs were everybody's worse nightmare and of all the things i've read about past conflicts that happened long ago...We seemed pretty childish...

I joined not because i wanted to find a purpose in my life, To reap in the pleasures of money and earing things cheaper for serving...I joined cause from what i've seen in books and movies that it's a living hell and those men out there need someone to watch their ass during a firefight, War isn't about glory or enjoying the feeling of watching your enemies slowly fade to the darkness, It's about saving fellow soldiers lives and allowing them to live and fight another day in this hell hole we call life.

At the time when i signed up i knew i had a very high chance of probably dying, I would have prefered it anyways since i was at a strange time in my life and didn't know what to do with myself at all. But you can never be quite prepared for the one damn day you have to watch people die and fight to stay alive while they were dead or dying a horrible death...That was the Colony Outbreak in a nutshell "It's Either You or Me.."

The Colonies that became overrun by Xenomorphs were bigger then such sites like LV-426, Some were as big as small towns on earth and some small towns to my knowledge had a lot of people in them, From the waves of Xen that came are way i knew it to be true and it wasn't easy to handle knowing everyone was dead and or hosts by the time we the "Calvary" Arrive to settle things down as ordered...But you can never be prepared for whatever these bugs had planned to throw at ya...

Interestingly enough to the dismay to the company certain Colonies that they cared about were subjected to the storm of hell these things would bring along with them, From what i know these Colonies were important to the future of Weyland Yutani since as it seems they are "Breeding" Facilities to Procreate more Scientists and Engineers to work for the Company once they had all grown up, That's why they gave a shit about some of the Colonies like these, They benefited the company more then others we had to go and clear out and that pissed a lot of us off, Regardless...We still had orders to follow and they were bittersweet ones that we had to grit our teeth and crack our knuckles for the fight of a life time.

We've met families, Some that already had or were on the way, Children. Man, We were pissing our pants when we found surviors, If we had a option we would prefer no one lived and just kill the bugs instead, Go ahead and hang me for saying that i don't care because it's a fact and everyone in each squad felt the exact same way. Civilians are a pain in the ass to protect, They panic, they scream at anything and worst of all they will react in the most stupidest of ways imaginable and i don't expect you to understand it but it's not easy to keep everyone alive without someone paying the price.

I vowed to protect My Blood Brothers and My Sisters of the Heart, I also promised to help the innocent no matter what happens to me...Our Drill Sergeant told us that we must be ready to send a man to his death, It's disgraceful to waste a life but very vital to make sure it isn't one. It's happened a few times but my Captain has done far worse then that, I recall Campos shutting the main entrance door to one colony while Seven soldiers were still inside trying to pull out by pushing the enemy back and walking backwords to the door, They could have made it out of there since we provided enough support to get them as far as they did and if any managed to escape we would kill it in an instant. But he didn't care that much, Said they were replaceable..

Times get tougher my father once said, It would also make you the Ultimate Badass the longer you are exposed to it but all it did was crush me, I lost good friends of mine, Watched people die, Kill people who never chose to become hosts and left some behind to never be found, Grabbing a soldiers dog tags to bring to a family was normally the rightful thing to do but these things provided an ungodly amount of fear in a man's eyes unlike the Classic Black Xeno's we would find here or there, They just take one bite at you and fuckin slam your ass to the ground with a lot of force to knock the wind out of you for a moment before you feel your flesh being torn off and your bones being cracked and broken by these beasts...

I....Cannot say too much about what i saw....I....Know for a fact i had people i was protecting and then the next minute...I'm running with cuts and open wounds with red Xen on my ass like a dog chasing a car, I don't remember that much or somehow a part of me doesn't even wanna remember it. What i do know is that i had soldiers and people that were right behind me for a second and then the next minute they were all gone and all of us were running out the door with our tails between our legs trying to figure out what to do next...

Truth be told, i don't wanna know what happened but a popular theory that everyone had was simple to explain, These things run at the speed of Sonic the Freakin Hedgehog, They were already sinking their teeth in you by the time you blinked, Maybe we got cornered or people were just pounced on and taken to the lower levels of the facility and we had to retreat before the rest of us were killed, I wish it was painless cause i would have gone out fighting these bastards with one damn knife and all teeth ripping through my body, as i go out like the man my father would have wanted me to go out like back when he was still around in my life, I can't say i don't like the thought of it...It's a good one but life goes on....

Whatever, I did my time in the military and fought against red devils for days, weeks, months, Hell maybe even years since i've lost track of time...I knew as i typed this all out that this is going to be an endless cycle of life and death on a constant repeat until my last day, A sweet release as some commented before entering a colony...When will this end? When can we nuke these things back to the darkness they once came from? One things for sure, I'd like to live long enough to shoot the dude that made these things in the balls...They serve absolutely no purpose in life at all, I guess that's the only thing we shared in common cause i have no clue what to do once i get out of this suit and hang up my weapon to leave...No clue at all.

I just wanna go home, Go back to Earth, Mother Earth and see the oceans, the clean sky and soft green grass...I took advantage of my life on that planet back in my youth, i didn't know i had it real good till i went to war....I just wanna go home..."

This is Lieutenant Crowe of the U.S.S Seccura, Signing Off.