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Lonely Absol — Description
Do you ever play a game and want to find the highest point to jump off of? I'm not feeling myself right now.. I feel like I don't know how to consistently be happy. Today I was trying to play a Co-Op game with my boyfriend and I just felt... lonely. He lives in another country and I haven't been able to see him for two years... I was looking out into the open world of the game and I just saw how empty it was. It was so quiet and sad..

I've always felt like I had a special connection with Absol because it made me feel like there was a character that I could relate to. Absol are inherently lonely as no one wants to be around them as they're rumored to bring disasters and... I feel like that's been happening in my life too.. I'm been trying to cope with my anxiety and depression but there's always something that makes me want to curl up in a ball and cry or run away, but no matter what I do, the toxicity follows me... I feel like I'm cursed to never feel normal.. Somedays I wish I could just go to sleep and never wake up, but that would be too lucky to ever happen to me. No.. Life is continuously going to force me to struggle while I'm trying to keep myself above water and stay sane.

Not sure where I'm going with this... I needed to vent I guess...