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I woke the next morning feeling groggy. The effects of my delayed work were now shown as the sky was muddled with dark, dreary rainclouds. The only thing that truly jolted me awake was the fact that Fluttershy was sitting at the edge of the cloud, looking down at the ground. I stretched with a small smile on my face, walking over to her. I attempted to give her a hug from behind and she cringed immediately, ducking away. "No."

No? What did she mean no? "Fluttershy..what's wrong?"

She turned to look at me. Her face was stoic. Inexpressive. I felt a lump forming in my stomach and small explosions go off in my heart. She sighed and rubbed her front leg, looking down.

"Rainbow Dash..I. I think we should talk." she looked up into my eyes, a few stray tears running down her cheeks. I began to tremble uncontrollably. I sat there, unsure of what to do. Shaking more and more my teeth began to rattle.

"W-W-...what is it?" I gulped. I was dreading the next words that were about to come out of her mouth. I've been dreading them since day one. But they formed anyway.

"I don't think...we should have..." she paused. "A sexual relationship anymore."

I felt my heart dropped to my legs.

"I think...we'd be better off...friends."

At that moment she said that my entire world collapsed around itself. I felt my face become soaked in tears but no sound came out. I fell silent, practically. My entire being was being sucked into a void where I just wanted to crash into the ground like a meteor and never wake up.

I opened my mouth to speak, but just like Fluttershy, only tears came down. Occasional yelps and whimpers escaped my lips however as I tried to process this.

"Ah....a......f....f....frie...friend...friends..........?"

Her stoic expression faded and occasionally I could see her fight so hard not to cry.

"Why...." I was able to choke out. She looked at the clouds, not looking me in the eye. I charged inches away from her face.

"Why the fuck are you doing this?! Give me an answer!!!!!" I demanded angrily. For that moment, all sadness was replaced with pure rage. But when she batted her cyan eyes at me, the gross sobbing came. I leaned backwards and looked at her, still shaking and crying.

She whimpered as well, unable to look me in the eyes. "I just...I..I was holding you back." she said finally. "I was holding us back. You and me, this isn't right." she said pointing to me then to her. I shook my head.

"Yes it is! It's so right! Why are you doing this? It doesn't have to be this way!" it was as if my words were bullets hitting steel. She wouldn't budge.

"And..I'm not..attracted to girls..Rainbow Dash.." she said sadly. "Between that and..and me holding you back from doing what you need to do." it seemed the more calm she grew, the more frantic I became.

"No..No! I know Fluttershy!" I said. "I know..I know I'm not a stallion. I know that! Don't you think I hate myself for not being a male?!" I said, hitting my chest. "Don't you think I don't already fucking hate that?!"

She cringed every time I yelled. "Rainbow I-"

"No! No Fluttershy please!" I said, sobbing more and more uncontrollably now. "Please....Please don't do this. Please don't go. I'll be a wreck..I'll be so by myself!"

Fluttershy's ears lowered. "You'll have the others an-"

"I don't want the others!!" I shouted angrily. "I want you! It's always been fucking you, Fluttershy! I gave up the Wonderbolts the first time for this and now I don't want them because I want you!" I tried so hard to stress this to her. She just continued to shake her head calmly.

"That's wrong. You can't base your life on me...you have to live your life as if we were never together."

"You might as well ask me to never fly again.." I said through my teeth, looking away. My eyes still overflowing with tears.

It remained silent. I knew once this talk was over, she'd be gone. And then..I didn't even want to think about what'd happen then. I grit my teeth, hoping I could still reason with her.

"Fluttershy...I'm so sorry I'm not a stallion. I am...I just-"

"That's such a small factor though...Dashie. It barley mattered on the large scale of this. Something changed within me, and I've changed you." she said pointing to me.

"You don't fly fast anymore, you always have to look out for me. You gave up your hopes and dreams for me. That's wrong, Rainbow Dash. You deserve so much more than this. You deserve a pony who wont treat you like I have and hold you back."

I cut her off, shaking my head. "I deserve you!" I said, still sobbing. I looked at her long and hard and I saw her make eye contact with me. "Please...I love you..."

She didn't answer and slowly began to back away. I felt myself panic even more.

"I love you!"

Silence.

"I love you!!"

Silence.

"Fluttershy!" I shouted, slamming my hooves on the cloud. "I fucking love you!"

It was then I saw more tears and restrained sobs coming from her. "I know.....I know...." she turned away to collect herself and sighed heavily. "If I say it then I'll be reminded that I do too. I'm trying to forget I'm inlove with you. I've already come to terms that we can't be together."

The rage came back. "Well I'm so fucking glad you figured it out way before I did." I shot daggers at her. Or tried to anyway. That Discorddamn face. I could not look at it without breaking down more. To look upon that face and realize that she didn't want to be with me. My mind was clouded with fear.

"Please..I'll change..."I said.

She smiled sadly to herself and shrugged. "Haha.....you already have changed. You need to...join the Wonderbolts. And I can't be with you anymore." she ran off the cloud and flew off. Just like that. She left me there with my own misery and sadness.

I watched her disappear, still calling after her. "Fluttershy!" I'd call. "Fl..Fluttershy!!!" my sobs could probably be heard throughout all of Cloudsdale, all of Ponyville even.

I sat there for a few minutes, letting what just happened sink in. My lips were trembling and my eyes were burning. Then once I realized she was gone, I slowly wrapped my arms around myself and bent over onto the cloud and sobbed uncontrollably. Gut wrenching cries spewed from my mouth as the tears drenched the cloud I was on. Why. Why had this happened to me? To us? I wanted to fly but my wings. They were glued to my back when I tried but I had to fly. I had to change the scenery. If I was at this spot any longer, I'd surely explode from sadness. I allowed myself to fall from the cloud until my wings spread open and I half halfheartedly flew to Ponyville. I lumbered through the sky as if I was drunk. Tears blinding my vision.

This early in the morning, nopony was outside, or even up. But I knew who was. I flew directly to SugarCube Corner.